Gettin' in the Groove

So first week down and I have to say it ended a ton better then it started. I took on 3 patients by myself today and 2 were discharged so I got experience with all that paperwork. I feel like I have grown a ton but I really am frustrated at how much I still have to learn, especially since there are nursing students who know more than I do. :( I know I will learn soon, and I will continue to learn more each and everyday from now until I retire but for right now I just feel like I'm screwing up wayyyyyy too much!

This week has been a great week for hanging out with family, I got to babysit my cousins and hang out and Kim and David's (cousins too). I love spending time with that family, they are so full of joy it just puts me in a great mood. I know I say this pretty much about every post but I really have loved having family around, I do however miss having a group of friends to hang out with...Please be praying for some great connections with in the Berean Church I've been going to in Lincoln. They have a tons of opportunities within the church so I just need to be really upfront and outgoing, which is really hard for me, but I'm kind of forced too, unless I want to be a lonely ole' recluse.

O NO

Yesterday was my first day on the floor. I wasn't nervous mainly because I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I quickly found myself thinking throughout the day..."what have I just gotten myself into". This comment/thought was not about becoming a nurse because I know that's what I am to be but this was about my floor that I am working on. I kept finding myself wanting to be on a cardiac floor and wanting to have more to do than repositioning patients and asking them if they were still nauseous. It was just a hard day. It was the first time I've cried throughout this whole transition process. I think I was still a little bummed from the weekend, It was really uneventful and I missed being able to hang out with my friends. I can't imagine this move to Lincoln without the love of my family because those that live in NE have been absolutely amazing at involving me in their lives and loving on me. I need to realize that God so clearly opened these particular doors for a reason and how can I be dissatisfied? I know I am on this floor for a reason and I know that I will soon become accustom to how the computer systems work and I will soon get into my groove of a nurse. My friend Keri's mom Kris who is like my second mom, and nursing mentor said this would happen and that these feelings are really very normal. She was totally right, I had no idea I would feel this scared. I think it invoked a strange homesickness for the way things used to be at Allen Hospital/college and how I was as a student. It didn't help that there were 6 nursing students on our floor yesterday that just made me think about the wonderful 4 years I spend with all of my closest friends. I know things will get better but for right now it'll just take some getting use to.

As I write this I feel really selfish because I mean this was all apart of God's plan and he knows the great and the bad that will come out of this. What I need to do is just rest in what he has in store and find contentment. So please pray for that, also just pray for confidence and realizing that I am able to be a great nurse to these patient's.

My Apartment

So I absolutely love my apt. Me and my mom painted all of these random green squares all over. In my bedroom we had the green square and then we hung different silver frames all over. LOVE IT!!

This is my Kitchen/dining room/entertainment/living room portion of my apt.

HERE IS MY BEDROOM...MY FAVORITE!

Almost Done

Only one more day of orientation and then I'll officially be performing patient care! AHH...kind of freakin out a lil bit.

I have had a great past few days. Yesterday at orientation they had play doh on the tables so I made a green butterfly with pink polka dot's and an apple tree with pink apples. I learned sooo much yesterday...NOT. Last night was fun but sad at the same time. I went and had supper with my cousin Kim and her husband David and their 3 kids and then me and Kim went to a purse party! We didn't buy anything but we had some great wine. Then the fiasco started. SO my phone died and I left it at home and while I was gone my cousin Ryan had been trying to get a hold of me and obviously I wasn't answering cuz I didn't have my phone. He ended up getting really nervous for my safety and ended up at my apartment waiting for me until I got home. I felt soooooo horrible. I def. feel loved though, Ryan along with all of my family around here have made me feel so incredibly welcome I haven't felt alone one single day out here. God is sooooo Good.

Today I went to orientation yet again and made a pipe cleaner creation for my pen and then went to my cousin Drake's baseball games here in Lincoln. AND I treated myself to my first RUNZA since I've been here in NE. For those of you who don't know what a RUNZA is...well that just too bad, cuz there super good.

Day 2

Ah today was day 2 of my lovely hospital orientation. We discussed important information like back safety and hand washing. I also signed up for all of my benefits; this process was pretty intimidating because I feel like it's a very important decision and I didn't want to mess it up.

I found this really cool place called the Meadowlark and it's this coffee shop that's all organic, shade grown, and fair trade coffee's/tea's/food. The latte was excellent and I can't wait to go back...only next time I won't accidentally turn the wrong way onto the "one way" street to get there :) Thank goodness no one was coming at me!!

After orientation I came home and got my swimsuit on and went to the pool and had my quiet time and wrote in my journal a bit. I also started this new book about the dust storms in the Midwest during the depression. Then I took a lovely nap by the pool and took a dip to cool off.

BOY DID GOD MAKE A GREAT DAY!!!

BOO orientation

Today was my first day of orientation...8 whole hours of brochures, movies, and tours. I wish I could say that this was my first and last day but noooooooo. I have to go for the next 4 days!

I am def. getting used to Lincoln, I haven't gotten lost once! I ventured out to Pier 1 Imports to burn up a gift card from my uncle JB and it was well worth it. I got a new rug, lamp, tray to go on my automan, and sugar and flour canisters. And I got $2.60 back, then I went and spent a fortune on scrubs. Did you know that Grey's Anatomy now has a scrub brand, and let me tell you they are the MOST comfortable thing on the face of this planet.

New to the Blogosphere

So this is my first blogging experience ever. I was hesitant to even do this but then I thought of ALL of the masses that are just so curious about my exciting life. I decided to fill them in on my new adventures of becoming a nurse and what it's like living back in Nebraska. On Friday I'm pretty sure I signed my life away in many different ways. We got to Lincoln and immediately went to the insurance company to get me off my parent's insurance.....AHHH real life was starting to hit. Then we went to get my apartment keys and sign the lease, again HOLY CRAP the whole grown up thing was starting to become more real. Finally without missing a beat we drove over to Bryan east which is that hospital were I'll work to sign a 2 yr. contract. I can't believe I now have an actual job plus an apartment that is mine and only mine!!!

This was only the beginning of the weekend. Saturday was move in day...

We started promptly @ 9am. My uncle Jim came to help us place everything in my spacious 538 sq. ft. apt. After getting the van unloaded my cousins Ryan and Amy stopped by followed by my Gma and Uncle JB with my 2 cousins Blair and Drake. Then my Uncle Jim came back with my Aunt Judy who so graciously brought over some food essentials like ranch dressing :) Then my cousin Kim and her husband David and their 3 kids stopped over. This was a fantastic ending to a very overwhelming day.

Today me and my parents went to the Berean Church with Kim and David and I loved it. It felt so comfortable to me and presented a TON of opportunities for me to get involved. After the family came over for lunch...we had SLOPPY JOE'S, SLOP SLOPPY JOE'S. Then...everybody left, even my parents. So now I'm sitting in my apartment and it's just me, this is sooooo weird. It will def. take some time to get used to the idea of living by myself.

Pics of the apartment soon...I promise!!