2 month milestone

Through a lot of prayer and time I have been coming to peace with my place here in Lincoln. Like I have said before God definitely opened all the doors for me to get here and why I doubt him about his decision is beyond me but it happens :/

I know God will give me relationships here in Lincoln but I will have to wait on his timing, which I can do.

ANYWAYS, yesterday I went up to Grand Island, NE which is about 1 1/2 hrs west to visit my nursing school friend Tesia. I got to meet her soon to be sister-in-law and I also got to see their new home that their in the process of buying. It's a beautiful home and I can't wait to see how they make it their own. We had a lot of fun visiting the little grocery store on Main st. in Wood River, NE which is where their house is. The store is called Mr. B's and it was sooooo adorable. I love having Tesh so close, I think she enjoys having me in Lincoln too! ;)

I also realized that I haven't told you any stories from my new nursing job. I have had 1 patient leave AMA(against medical advice), 2 patients with fistula's which is a hole made from one part of the body to another, so my patients were peeing poop and pooping pee (minor stuff like that)...I've been successful on most of my IV stick but some I have had to get help on. I got to celebrate a 66th wedding anniversary with my patient and his wife, they gave me the leftover Olive Garden and some cake, it was a good dinner. I have been blessed to take care of patients and their families who have just received news of new onset cancer. I have been subjected to smells I never thought could come out of a human body, like bloody stools. I have learned how to deal with my patients who are hard of hearing...a true test of patience for sure!!

It's been a great 2 months so far and I can't believe I only have 4 more weeks of orientation...YIKES, I'm definitely feeling more prepared then I was when I first started. I start working the night shift this week, so I'll work from 6:45pm to 7:30am WOOT WOOT, it's be interesting that's for sure.

Reality

So I've lived in NE for 2 months and the newness is starting to ware off and the reality is starting to become apparent. I am starting to struggle with the fact that I don't have many connections here in Lincoln. I have so much family around but they are all so busy with their own activities and families which is so important and I don't want to interrupt their quality time at all. I have been connected in a bible study but I'm just not clicking with the girls like I'd hoped so it's hard for me to get motivated to go. I try to go to busy places to surround myself with commotion but a lot of the time I find myself home alone in my apartment. I keep trying to tell myself that it's just a phase that I usually go through whenever I move, I know it takes a while to form relationships but I just have been really praying for someone to talk with and hang out with.

Please pray for those relationships to happen! Please pray for patience and a continued growth in my faith and relationship with Christ.

On the flip side, a new reality has hit me that I have now switched over quite comfortably to the teacher rather than the student. We have had nursing students on our floor and I have found myself loving the fact that I can teach them interesting facts and techniques. I have been able to walk them through their first time giving shots and it brings me back to the excitement of my first time. I remember my first insulin shot. I was only giving 2 units and I gave it in the arm and for some reason I thought the syringe was malfunctioning and that the insulin wasn't injected. I restuck this guy 3 times before I realized there was nothing in the syringe...it was just a really small dose and went in that quickly. :
) ah good times!!! Anyways I just have loved feeling comfortable in the new nursing role and I have also loved making my patient's smile and laugh.

God has given me my dream and has given me the personality to be successful at that dream...ALL TO HIM I OWE FOR THIS NEW REALITY.